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For the last couple of weeks I have had a heavy heart. I would like to ask that you pray for my family. My brother is facing serious health issues that threaten his life. It has been hard to think about and face. It has esp been hard for my Dad. Laying it down....
I have been very sleep deprived this past week. Braiden is cutting 3 teeth and tosses and turns most of the night. He doesn't want Patrick at night and has taken a new interest into nursing through the night. I know it is for comfort but I am done and really feel like I have nothing left to give him. Laying it down.....
The guilt of loosing our baby 2 years ago has also been very heavy for me. That baby's short life made a difference in me. I am forever changed because of that sweet baby. It does however haunt me, I play that day over and wonder what if so many times. Trying so hard to lay it down...
The economy and how it is causing uncertainty in jobs and the lives of our friends and people we love. laying it down.....
The Presidential election and what the outcome holds for our country. Laying down.....
Our Church and how it is time as a whole church body to standing up for what is right, good and what is told in the Bible. Laying it down but also standing up.......
Everyday famliy stuggles with our children and husband and family. Laying it down......
My heart feels so heavy and tired of all the hurt and fear.

When I am tired I have a tendency to dream strangely. The other night I was dreaming and bear with me- I was doing gymnastics. I was running hard and tumbling. I was however weightless and flipping high in the air. Floating around and free. That feeling of freedom overwhelmed me. I woke up and felt so comforted. I felt as if God was speaking to me and saying I held your fears and heaviness so you don't have to. I was led to
Psalm 107. In particular verse 14 -( He brought them out of darkness and the deepest gloom and broke away their chains.) Laying all of my chains at your feet Father God.

In this time of Thanksgiving we have so much be thankful for. God blesses us far more than we deserve.

Just a few of the things I am most Thankful:

For Jesus Christ who in spite of who I am loves me.

For being a mom to 4 children- 3 amazing wonderful children that I get to share my life with. True miracles. The laughter, giggles, and sound of little feet running down the hall.
And 1 angel in heaven- I can't wait to hold you one day but comforted knowing Jesus always will.

For being a wife to a loving husband. I am so greatful to have you- you are my rock and my best friend. Thank you for holding me up.

For being a daughter to parents who love me like Jesus in spite of who I am. For being blessed with a Step mom who taught me of the love of Jesus and instilling that forever in my heart.

For being apart of a family who is always there even though don't get to see each other often.

For our Jobs, you provide our every need.

For my Husbands family- Always there when we call. Always ready to support us. Even sit in waiting with us. For loving our children.

I am so thankful for Daystar and the sweet people we have met there. You have blessed my life and our children are forever changed. They were saved and excepted Jesus into their hearts at church camp this summer.

For friends who we can count on and be held accountable to. We love you all and are thankful for you.

So much more I couldn't possibly list them all. Point being far more than anything we deserve.

Thank you God for answered prayers and always meeting our needs.